Hi there my sweet Sysop.. (hee..hee..)

      Though we haven't got to know each other all that well,
but through all the times that we've been in contact, through
the idea(s) exchanging, through the laugh(s) sharing, I've
really come to appreciate our friendship. That's why this
card is sent to you to wish you everything you want for the
Christmas season & for the new coming year. I'm not talking
about you alone, but I also mean everyone in your family &
others you might love & care for. I doubt whether we'll get
to meet when I go over to your house since you might not be
back yet, but I hope when you see this card you'll know that
you are being wished for all you dream for and every happiness
for today and always.

      I didn't pick out this card myself, but according to my
friends' suggestion. They all said that the picture in front
really looked like me. I remember you mentioned once about
my picture, so I guess this might do. Though it just looks like
me maybe 7 years old, but I believe you could add it up with
your imagination (& my increasing weight) and come up with a
rough picture of this present me. To give you some help, her
characteristic & her smile are said to be exactly like mine..
& also please don't add any prettiness or beauty into the
rough picture so that you wouldn't come up with a wrong one.

      " HAVE A MERRY CHRISTMAS & A VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR "

                                ...this cute little Jenn...

(I just love her and her English words, they're so perfect..
as if it's her mother's language. She chatted on-line with me,
hours at a time. She also sent me several tape cassette
containing her sweet voices and words. She's kind of talkative
and playful. The followings are two poems I wrote for her):


FOR JENN

It's like a dream comes true
When I came to know you;
In the digital electronic scene
Via comm program and BBS machine.

You're a young and playful gal
I'm happy every time you call;
Getting to know you more and more
Now I know what I'm looking for.

You light up my life and my world
And God!, you're a wonderful girl;
You give me hope, but shatter my soul
I'm afraid I'm just too old.

But I can't help this feeling of mine
Though I foresee pain there down the line;
You might not think the way I think you do
And now it's clear that this is true!

I'm finding myself, again
In bitter agony and fatal pain;
I can't help but let it be
My pleade to God: "Why me?"

It's like the heaven's tumbling down
Knocking my head onto the ground;
My sweet dream has come to an end
Running out of my mind, crying for Jenn!

                FOR JENN!
                23 Dec'89

FOR JENN II
(Written using one Thai poem format named "Karp-Yani 11")

 I know I love you      It is true and you know
All my actions show     and it's out from my eyes

 As long as world turns, as fire burns and sun shines
You are on my mind      and my heart's part of you

 Wherever you are,      everything you do
I admire them thru        my sixth sense, again here

 With love and my life  I will fight for my dear
So that you are near..  but what should I do now?

 Love me if you can,    If you can't.., turn me down
I'm already grounded    Will accept what you'd say

 Angel of my night      And sunshine of my day
I wish you'd stay       Beside me.. till the end!

                FOR JENN  II
                1 January'90



MY DREAM

I dream of a happy hut
By the stream down the hill;
Where I, my love, we both
Bring up my Jack and Jill.

I dream of simple life
We live together there;
Right under the sunshine
Entwined by fresh, clean air.

I dream of waterfalls
Which form into our walls;
Dividing us from man
Doing the best we can.

I dream of a pretty girl
Who means to me all the world;
I'm happy when she's around
True happiness I've found.

I wake up to reality
My dream is still with me;
To make my dream come true
I need some help from you!

THERE GOES MY HEART

Poor red rose of love
Your time has just begun;
To bloom in name of love
But now you're nearly done.

My babe's going away
Leaving me deep in pain;
What more can I say?
When all will be in vain.

I can't wait forever
I can't wait so long;
I can't live, either
With sorrows so strong.

But baby, free you are,
Do what you wanna do;
I'll realize how far
Away I am... from you.

Good old times together
How I'm longing for!
I'll miss you forever
I'll still love you more.

Bye bye, baby, we part
Wish you a happy world;
There to the U.S. my heart
Goes with my sweetest girl!.


MY OWN

When I was two and twenty
I thought another way;
I thought my time was plenty
So I wasted it each day.
I had lot of girlfriends
And some of them loved me;
I was so young that then
I just wanted to be free.

When I was three and twenty
In love again was I;
But then, I wanted to be
With me, myself and I.
I turned away my girl
Ended all love affairs;
I lived in my own world
Wanted no burden to bear.

Now I am three and thirty
I've already changed my mind;
Time has changed me really
I shouldn't have been so blind.
I should have already wedded
It's lonely all alone;
But I should not regret
'Cause I chose it my own!


	อี เ ม ล เ พ ล ง ย  า ว 

        พี่ส่งเมลมามุ่งหมายสมาน
        เพื่อน้องนางเนื้อนิ่มได้ยิ้มนาน
        เธอแอบอ่านอีเมวจนเอวเคล็ด

        เพราะลูกเล่นลูกฮาถ้าว่าไป
        จะหาใครเทียบพี่..ไม่มีเด็ด!
        แบบคารมคมคำต้องตามเช็ด
        ยามทะเล็ดทะลักจากปากมา

        อาจทะลึ่งตึงตังในบางหน
        สัปดนสัปดี้บางทีท่า
        ก็เพราะเสพสัจธรรมไม่นำพา
        กับบรรดาเกณฑ์กฎทุกบทบรรพ์

        ได้ใช้ชีวิตหนุ่มอย่างคุ้มค่า
        โดยปรัชญาชีวิตที่บิดผัน
        เรื่องแหกคอกนอกรั้วชอบพัวพัน
        แล้วก็ดันด้านดื้อและถือดี

        ไม่เหมือนใครและไม่มีใครเหมือน
        นี่คือเพื่อน นี่หรือ ก็คือพี่
        คือผู้ร่วมอุดมการหว่านวลี
        ผ่านคลื่นสีน้ำเงิน...เดินทางมา

        โดยสารเส้นแลนด์ไลน์ร่อนไปทั่ว
        หากพบตัวสาวงามที่ตามหา
        หวังว่าเธอคงจะกรุณา
        ตอบสารารักนี้ของพี่เอย /


คลื่นสีน้ำเงิน = Blue Wave (Off-line Reader)
แลนด์ไลน์ = Land Line (สายโทรศัพท์)